The Ledge

Why is it that when you least expect it, you find yourself balancing on the ledge of bad food. I went beyond climbing onto the ledge and yelling softly to be talked down from it. I climbed out the window, onto the ledge and jumped off last night, straight into a vat of Ruffles.

They were broken chips and I had a few handfuls but I would be generous in saying there were 36 whole chips. The points value on those bad boys are a whopping 11.5 points. Fucking oi! Since this eating fiasco struck at 2 am (yes, 2 a.m.) I will be counting those as my "breakfast" points for the day.

I blame my period. My filthy bitch of a period who has come back with a vengeance to thwart all weight loss efforts, and in general, ruin my fucking day. The Mirena has been a lifesaver (or should I say life preventer)and I have rarely gotten my period in the past few years, but now I seem to get visits all the time. It's like having one of those family member that you accept for who they are but can't really stand, move closer to where you live and begin to drop by more often.

If you are reading this and you don't get what Im trying to explain, let me make it supafly and supaclear. I have a vagina, therefore I graze when its 'that time.' Weight watchers or no weight watchers, my insides told me to feed them last night.

Here is todays's verdict so far:

Midnight to 2am:
36 ruffles (11.5pts)
1/4 cup Wasabi & Soy almonds (4 pts)
1 ea 100 cal pkt of doritos (3 pts)
4 sugar free particles (1 pt)


This is not, NOT, NOT a healthy snack, but like I said, I blame the ol 'rag'time melody and the fact that I had 4 cups of coffee after 8 pm. Awake , bored and hungry.

The extremely pleasing, the very excellent news is that I am sharing this here and realizing how bad it looks. I feel bad too, that I put this horseshit into my body in the middle of the night/morning. I will be adding this to my today points and will spend the rest of my day eating better. Veggies, soups, whatnots.

*wish me luck and check in later.

***UPDATE***

*Lunch*
chips & salsa 10 pts
steaks(hardly ate) shrimp and chix fajitas - 13 pts


6:51 pm. I just had dinner and I think I stayed in my points range. I took GiGi to the Zoo and for a 30 minute walk earlier so, total time walking was over two hours NICE! For dinner I used my activity points and ate a 4 pt turkey WW meal and grilled onions, carrots, zucchini and asparagus under the broiler for ZERO points. Nice and filling.

whew. I think I can recover and dring the shit out of some water before my wednesday weigh in. Im still feeling like Im going to be plus a pound or two because of AF. We shall see.